Friday, July 27, 2012

Dust and Mud - A Trip out West

I'm headed West before Fall. I have posts written to come up most every day and hopefully I can get to a coffee shop with wi fi to say hello to you all, for the original Home on the Range has no Internet.  I hope though, to bring back some stories  for those long Fall nights, to share with those who remember such days.

There will be chores to be done for Dad, probably quite a few days of hard work, food to be prepped and canned for his winter larder, soups and stews to be made and frozen for him.  Then, time with the big brothers, as we sit at the edge of a body of water as it gathers of the remainder of the light, and then returns it to us. There we will simply sit, the only sound the small clink of ice in a  glass, the occassional rumble of laughter and the gentle whine of mosquitoes.

I have no desire to move back there, as much as I love them.  My life is in the Midwest, my heart is here, but still, it doesn't take but a sound, a smell, a sight from those places to take me back to my childhood. . . .

I'm looking at nothing but a line of denim clad rear ends.

No, I'm not at some Cougar watering hole, I'm at a rodeo, and I'm five years old. I can't see what's going on ahead with all the people perched upon the rails, the sweated hats, the boots, bodies dense around the arena,  no one talking very much, just looking inscrutably ahead at wonders I couldn't see because frankly, I'm too short!

With my Mom and Dad growing up around the Flathead Lake area, vacations and family events, often took place in the state where they grew up. Sure, we had the occasional trek to my Aunt and Uncle's ranch in the foothills of California and trips to the coast where we'd rent a little cottage. But luxurious vacations involving many miles and lots of dollars were not in our budget.

I remember just bits and pieces of those trips, traveling to small towns to meet up with friends from their youth. I remember blowing up gopher holes with big firecrackers outside of a hotel room in the high desert. I remember racing down the side of a hill in a formation of bikes with a war cry, one hand on the bars, the other pumping the air faster than a pulse, as we conquered yet another bit of land unclaimed by summer. I remember rushing out of the house after dinner into a vacuum of crickets, to see if it was true you could catch a bat with a sock and a small stone.   I remember sitting on the back of a horse the size of a Star Wars ATAT. And I remember the rodeo.

But all I could see were the butts.

Fortunately, Dad spotted my predicament and lifted me up on his shoulders so I could see. I leaned forward into the wind to get as close to the action as I could. Finally, I could see over every one's head and the smile couldn't get any bigger. There I was, snow cone dribbled on my shirt, barbecue sauce at the corner of my mouth, grit in my teeth, the smell of blood in my nose and I was on my Dad shoulders seeing an actual cowboy on a wild eyed horse that looked like it wished to render both fence posts and rider into kindling. Yee Haw!

The rodeo has been a part of the American landscape for many generations. It's abhorred and revered, but you have to remember from where it came, a time when we subjugated the land and it's animals, using them as tools of work, courage and faith to settle a land and provide for future generations. The rodeo arose from working practices of cattle herding in many nations, not just the United States, based on the skills required of the cowboys. These skills go back as far as man and horse joined, in the Spanish traditions of the vaquero.

Early rodeo-like affairs of the 1820s and 1830s were informal events in the western United States and northern Mexico, with cowboys and vaqueros testing their work skills against one another. Later in the century, with the expansion of the trains and the introduction of barbed wife (yes that was a typo, that's supposed to be wire!) long cattle drives were fewer and many cowboys took jobs with the Wild West shows such as those organized by Buffalo Bill Cody, which featured riding and shooting and roping skills galore.

As a child at my first rodeo, what clings to my memory is sight, sound and smell. The clouds moved past so quickly, so fast that a young girl on a fast horse can almost catch up. Barrel racing. Six legs, three barrels, two hearts and one mind. As a youngster I was never much into horses, the plastic horse I was given for Barbi ended up as a pack mule for GI Joe and had a little accident back in enemy territory and had to be shot.

But as a young adult, I took a different look at the animal and around my home are the many traces of them. I had a girlfriend who lived in the foothills in Nevada. I'd visit during college and after and remember waking up to wild horses in their front drive every morning. There, right outside their kitchen window, no more odd in their apparition there than a Robin or a Sparrow would be,  wild horses. They simply shifted in and out of sight, there in the fog of the high desert, moving silently like breath traveling across a mirror, then disappearing before I was awake enough to know if I had truly seen them or not.

The rodeo that day long ago was one diorama of action after another. After the barrel racing, there was the tie down roping, a blur of motion and hoof, a strong cowboy wrestling with a stark white calf the color of Christmas morning. Even as a child, I was at home there in the dust, the noise, the smells of hay, manure and hard work. I still am. Cows, horses and men, women, all were squinting into the glare of the sun and the wind, their hearts beating with the adrenalin rush of the buzzer, as overhead a raptor rides the updrafts. Coyotes watch from afar, making their living as gypsies that follow those that follow the trail.

As always, there were the rodeo clowns. As a kid I hated clowns, still do. But not these. For they weren't mere clowns, the buffoons of childhood parties and nightmares. These were amusing athletes, distracting the bulls or a bucking horse when a rider was down, exposing themselves to the greatest of dangers while protecting the cowboy, yet entertaining the crowd. As a kid I just thought they were "clowns that were actually cool". As an adult, I look at these bullfighters, for the word clown is not used much, and stand in awe of a skill and level of courage that's under appreciated by those outside those arenas.

Of course there was the rodeo food. There's not too many places on earth where you can experience every kind of critter known to man, barbecued, deep fried, roasted, seared and dusted with chili powder on bun, bread, plate or stick. It's a combination of the best of road trip food, fair food, and farmhouse table cuisine. As a kid it was food euphoria, as an adult biting into a seared sausage on a bun, homemade lemonade in hand, I knew indeed what the seventh deadly sin tastes like. But first I bowed my head as my parents taught, without embarrassment or hesitation, to notify God that I was about to eat and thank Him for the privilege.

The bull riding was a crowd favorite, as we watched a superhero in a hat climb about a heaving, breathing beast in a chute. You never knew what to expect from a bull. They were capable of anything. Of any height or twisting moment, only to be remembered in dazed incomprehension in the aftermath of the taming, eight seconds of heaven that so quickly could turn into hell. The bulls never stood down, never disappointed. They were man's subject, but they were also God's creation, set alive and in motion, capable of all things, for He had created them out of the hot breath of the desert and the wild wind of the Plains.

It wouldn't have been a rodeo without the saddle bronc riding. This is one of the "classics" of the rodeo, and grew naturally out of ranch cowboys breaking wild broncos to use as working cow horses. Like bull riding, it's a short event, to keep intact the spirit and health of the horse, but it's powerful, the cowboy attaining power over an animal that refuses to sacrifice grace. A communion of man and animal under the blessed sky.

I notice the hands, muscles corded, ropes digging into flesh. If you work around horses, you learn about rope. It's heft, it's feel, lying across your hands, burning into it. You learn that rope has it's own life, a feel and responsiveness that connects you to something. A bale of hay, a horse. It's a transference, from the guile of your mind and the laughter of your heart, through a rope, onto a horse's flesh, a subtle wordless tool that communicates your intent just as sure as if you had spoken. I watch another barrel racer, a mane of hair flying, rider and ridden, connected by a tether of purpose, the horse flying with joy, happy to be connected again.

The air is rife with sound, of man, of animals, hands muscles, sweat and breath of both man and beast coming out in puffs of sweet air. Too soon, it was time to leave, sunburned and tired parents ready to take us back home. Home, rooted in dust and leather, denim and rope, a hundred years of memories in those men and women, hoofs and horses, the cowboy's way as steady and strong as history.

There was another thing I took home on that day. A lesson in not giving up. Some of the falls were brutal and had to be exquisitely painful. Some could be fatal. But I never saw anyone get up, throw a temper tantrum and walk out of the arena.  They calmed their frustration, looked their adversary clearly in the eye and got back to the actuality of rodeo, not the dream of it.

I'd remember that as I took a deep spill on my bike, coming off yet another hill,  and again, years later in life, when hurt and loss tapped me way too early in life, as it is prone to do.  And I'd dust myself off with a laugh, the sound tickling my throat and I'd look off into the trees, the light slanting through the them like slats in a fence, knowing others were watching, perched there in the shadows, murmuring voices of encouragement and hope, counting on me to get up off the ground.  I'd think of bulls and blood and dust and mud and I knew I needed to laugh, or I'd be crying. And I'd get back on the damn horse, for that is what anyone of them would do.

The cowboy and cowgirl know not of quitting. They know of smooth muscled flanks and leather. Something you could see, touch and conquer.  It's a small moment in time, a small space, a traveling island of determination,  a symphony of testosterone, adrenalin and nerves. It's courage that cleaves the air like a bucking horse, displacing it and then filling the soul.

Like the patriot, they didn't give up, they didn't apologise for what they believed, what they had done, or what they stood for. They moved past their fear, back into that relationship with the one thing that let them be part of something greater than themselves. Sure, there had to be fear, you could smell the dense coppery taste of it in the air. But it's only momentary.

Like the first American cowboys, they had the supreme confidence in their destiny, even if momentarily airborne. That unruffled belief in their own abilities and their knowledge of those creatures that God gave us dominion over. That unruffled commitment to a way of life that launches them out of the chute, off the back of a horse and out into the wild open blue. It's a place where the American Spirit of the West still lives, flowing on in the veins in the cowboys and cowgirls of today

If I get a chance when I'm out West to go to one, I will. It's like the tractor shows and steam fests I love,  something about such pieces of history that no words can describe, whether you are young or old. The rodeo will always be something something of my history, the landscape of the West that continues on, dependable and wild, like a horse that wanders down from the hills on the morning dew. Movement, motion and courage sounding out as prairie dust flies up with the stomp of a hoof, the sound of a buzzer breaking the lie of inertia.


  1. I'm not a crowd person...but you've got me looking at tickets for the 75th Anniversary Rodeo in Ellensburg that happens Labor Day Weekend.

    If you have memories like that...don't I owe it to my daughters to make memories like that for them?

    Not sure exactly where 'out west' is for you, but if it's anywhere in the vicinity of the Tri-Cities, drop me a line...

  2. You brought back memories. Not so much a full blown rodeo, but the Chincoteague Pony Swim. I went there with my Grandfather way back in the day. He on a Quarter Horse participated in it. He was a Man that loved the Horses. I back then was amazed at the beauty and pageantry of the swim and the skilled cowboys that made it so.

  3. If you pass through my neck of the woods, drop me a line at the email address on the blog.

    Have you ever seen "American Bullfighting"? Think rodeo clowns without the makeup or cowboys, just a man with cojones so big he needs a semi to haul them, and a bull trying to play "Smear the (er) rhyming slur."

    Geek that I am, my first thought was that we've revived the ancient Cretan Tauromachia...

  4. Stay Safe, we all be looking for some great tales of the west.

  5. If you like tractors, and you are coming West on I-70, consider a stop in Burlington, CO at
    Once you get past the tourist claptrap, there are 50+ working farm tractors. Also, a fair selection of firearms that were used by the early settlers.

  6. I've only been to a couple of rodeos, and that was during the summer I spent with my cousins in Idaho when I was 1.
    Been to a LOT of tractor-pulls, though!
    Bless you for taking care of Dad, and doing all those things for him.
    My Dad's been gone about 20 years now, and I still miss him.

  7. greg - my Auncle Ralph was from the tri cities area. Spent more than one summer with a visit there. Not a stop this time though, as there's no family left in that area. Thanks for the invite. You'd be surprised the things daughters remember.

    Keads - that is something I've always wanted to see.

    Drang - I'll drop you a note. We won't be in the area but I'll give you some contact info in case the brothers plans change. I've one in Poulsbo and Sequim. Dad has a minor medical procedure to be done and then we may just head to a cabin somewhere to regroup.

    Rob - between work planned and trip planned posting will be lighter in August, but there will be some good stories in September when life settles down again.

    Well Seasoned - Brigid Jr lives between Colorado Springs and Denver in the foothills. I can't make it out for a birthday gathering due to the trip to Dad's but I will be out there in the Spring to visit. I miss them.

  8. beautifully written as always. I'm remembering breaking my own sweet 2 yr old Quarter Horse and starting to teaching him barrels before getting shipping off overseas and having to let him move on to a new family. I also remember my only time on a mechanical bull. I lasted 8 seconds, but I don't think anything I had done before or since compared to the soreness I had the next day.
    Safe journey!

  9. Have a safe trip and enjoy the family. Good luck to your Dad on his procedure.
    Attending the rodeos always bring back memories and they are all good ones.

  10. Never been to a rodeo, but hubby has seen a few out in the Kansas & Nebraska area. His favorite part was the dinner-bell derby which can be funny and sweet at the same time as the colts manage to find their mothers at the finish line - eventually.

  11. Ah, Brigid Jr lives in the paradise I usually refer to as Destination A.....the whole state is beautiful...I should have never left there, way back when......

    Good luck and good health wishes for your Dad and for your safe travels out there....


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