Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing?
and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.
But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.
Snow covers the ground, here so early on a late Spring morning. The neighborhood is quiet, no one leaving for work quite yet, no tracks in the snow, but for an early morning taxi, one of the neighbors likely headed to O'Hare.
You think the snow is done for the year with May halfway here. Then two weeks later, there it is again. There's a lot of life like that. You get through one big adventure, thinking, that will be the best one yet, only to have another, even better down the road. Or you suffer hardship and loss and think "that's it, Lord, I can't handle any more of this" only to have your words catch in your throat with the tears as life swats at you with its clawed paw yet again. Then there are the moments when danger is all around, and you are pretty sure you are already dead but pretend to be alive for those around you who do not see that you are only a pile of ashes and dust, only to fly past the red line into the rising sun as your co-pilot states "Well Skipper, THAT was hardly "light turbulence" was it?" and you both laugh. I miss the flying, I don't miss the nights in hotels in beds that were never soft enough, or warm enough, yet are always big enough to remind you that you are alone.
Plus nothing says "Yield" like a redhead woman driving a giant black extended cab 4 x 4 with multiple firearm stickers on the back window in Chicagoland traffic.
It's going to get some use this week. Partner in Grime got in an accident at a notoriously bad corner in our village. No one was hurt, and no one was cited, it is a blind spot that has claimed more than one fender. But the local auto repair place is backed up and it will be a week or so until it is done.
When bad things happen, how we survive them is really how we look at it Some people look at every slight, every setback as if looking into a dark forest that is more than gloom but an actual menacing hostility. With the slightest rustle, they are ready to scream, in fear or for help. I look into the forest and see, sometimes, danger, sometimes challenges, but ultimately a silent journey that will have me leave it for the next clearing, stronger, with a better-defined purpose of what the plan is for my life. In such moments, you don't look down at the scars, but simply embrace the joy that comes with both reckoning and recognition of finding your path.
As I went out, the stillness was the first thing I sensed, then the brilliance of the ice that had struck the ground, only to hold on fast for dear life, lest warming come. It shone with a brilliance that is newly blown glass as if the slightest shift in the air would shatter it to pieces. Above it the sudden glint of the sun through the clouds, there for that moment as if enchanted into staying by the mysterious spell that is a snow-swept landscape. Some people don't like the cold brightness of snow, seeing it as cold brutality as opposed to a cleansing brightness. I love the snow, yet I understand how others view it, knowing too well the peace that a warm night can bring to a day weary soul.
Then, it was time for one last errand, before I handed over my keys for the week. The sirens were the first things I heard beyond the scrape of a snow plow and the honk of a horn as cars positioned for first place on a street slick with sleet. Up ahead, a cluster of red and blue lights and an ambulance that was waiting too far away from the actual crash to bring thoughts of comfort. First responders were tending to the uninjured, standing on the sidewalk, while the roof was cut off from what used to be a small car to extract the soul that had been there.
As I turned and headed back home, the errand being one I could put off for a couple of days, I realized that I had no reason to grumble that I have to share my vehicle or any costs out of pocket for the repair. Partner had only a crumbled fender as a result of his lousy morning last week, and fenders can be fixed. I looked up to the sun, now in hiding, and said a quiet thanks to He who watches over, not just the birds of his field, but his fledgling, forgiven children.