Monday, February 24, 2014

Barkley

 Barkley
July 12, 2003 - February 24, 2014

There is no easy way to write this, but Barkley is gone.  It was bone cancer, advanced, and the best of care and all the ramps in the world couldn't keep him free from pain any longer, a feeling that was articulated in his eyes, and not just his movements as he tried to play and could not. 

No more pain, no regrets  Everything I give him, he gave me back ten fold, listening to me chat away about my day, things that by my oath of duty, I couldn't tell anyone else.  He was my black knight with wagging tail, the fur covered Kleenex when I cried. He was the finder of slippers and the keeper of hearts.

He was a dog, but he was much more than a dog. 

He was  support, he was patience. He was the promise that even with the worst mistakes, he still loved me. He was that fire that cauterized me against loneliness and fear, the thump of his tail like the sound of a heart in the womb, creature comfort there in the dark and unknown.  He became the unevictable place in a heart so bruised, it had pushed everyone harshly away that got too close, teaching me to trust again. With that trust, I found my heart's twin, who happily became his family as well.
As family, we take care of each other.   Having a pet is a commitment just as is any bond, either visible or invisible with another living creature, is. It's not just being a good friend during the good times, it's being a friend during surgery, explosive doggrhea, and that pile of vomit in the corner on the one square of carpet that wasn't protected by a cheap throw rug.

You do what you can to help them during those scary, shadowed times, with tender, soothing words. You don't  lay your hand upon them with forceful curse and belittlement. They look at you to be the strong one, the better one, even if it's difficult to do. They trust you to act from your heart and not from the infinite, internal voices of human fear and angst.
They pay it back in ways that can't be captured, but by the measured beat of a tail.  On those nights when you come home really, really late from work, your soul weary, the house dark, they will quietly come up to you, leaning into you, drawn from their slumber to your side like steel and magnet.  At that moment, there as both your hearts beat in the silence, you realize that every measure of sickness and health was worth it.

For there is  great measure of trust and love contained in that warm web of bone and fur, the eyes that can commandeer your pancakes and the tail that wags for you as if you were the only person on the planet for them, and maybe you are.
Their time is so short, indeed, but that doesn't mean you should not love. In "people" years, Barkley was probably sixty something.  But they were years condensed down into their core elements, as if a simple ordinary succession of days were not enough, as if the love and all of that faithfulness, the freedom of the field, and the tug of a leash towards the horizon were compressed down into something as hard and brilliant as diamond. Everything, every single element of so many long days is there in that short span of time, compounded into that one leap, one surge, towards the lights of a vehicle in the drive, one joyous bark that contains within it simply "My person is home!"
He cared nothing about what kind of house we had, how I looked or how much money was in the bank.  All he cared about was how to bequeath that for which sustained him,  in his too short life, his faith and his love, as he patiently waited for my return.

When he greeted me, he seemed to know when I just needed to sit in the quiet.  He seemed to know when I wanted to play.  And play he would.  If there was a ball to be thrown, he would abandon all restraint and gave every fiber of himself, to reach that for which was before, only a dream; unmitigated glory.  His life was not deadlines, or deals or caring about the things that in all reality, will not matter at the end of a life.  His life was simply a joyous run ahead of that avalanche of time that would be his enemy had he any concept of it.

But time caught up with him, forcing a decision that I hoped wouldn't have to be made. But meds couldn't keep the pain at bay and amputation and chemo were only going to buy a  short, short amount of time, at the expense of his comfort. I could not in good conscious make him go through that, for there was no cure, only a continuation of pain. So I was there, by his side, not passing on the burden solely to someone in a white lab coat, loving and caring, but not his "Mom".  Although he never formally took an oath, paw placed upon a revered document, flag on the wall, an oath was taken.  When he came home with me as a  puppy, he swore his life to serve and protect.  That was his duty, as it is mine.

He had medication to take the pain away, a big bowl of  food that wasn't kibble, and all the treats he could happily gobble down. There was no fear in him, no pain, no anxiety.  Dad and Mom said goodbye as I placed my cool hand on his warm flank and talked to him down at floor level, in all those murmured words that meant something only to us. Where else could I be but to just be there as the needle quietly slipped in and he was free from all burden, one surge, one leap towards the light so easily and joyously, so as to lose all sense of restraint, weightless upon the warm, invisible air.  He was free, the pain of bone and flesh departed, only one long, joyous, soundless bark as he went Home to wait by the Rainbow Bridge until we can catch up.
He was more than a dog.  He was love that crept in on four paws and remains, as long as  memory lasts.
- Brigid

337 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear this, my thoughts are with you.

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  2. misbeHaven and I are so very sorry for your loss. Know that you and Barkley are in our thoughts and prayers. TXGunGeek

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  3. Brigid,

    I am truly sorry for your loss of a dear friend. I remember reading Og opine that he and the Creator will have some words if his dogs aren't there to greet him in the afterlife.

    I must concur.

    Evan James, aka Jetfxr69

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  4. There are so many things that could be said, but he was a good dog in every meaningful sense of the words, and a member of your family. And vicariously through your words and pictures, of ours.

    He will be missed, and I'm so sorry for his loss. Hugs, my friend.

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  5. My father died of bone cancer and it is nothing that you would want Barkley to go through. I'm really sorry.

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  6. Oh, Brigid! I am SO sorry. I have been praying every day for you and your Barkley. May God hold you in His loving arms during this sorrowful time.

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  7. Gods bless both of you. Thank you for staying with him until he was safely on his way and in God's hands.

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  8. Sometimes nothing more than "He was a good dog" needs to be said. Though I do prefer the longer eulogy, written down like this. I still go back to what I had wrote in July 2012 often, as the memories do fade, I so need the reminder.

    I'm sorry for your loss. I'm happy for his life.

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  9. In a perfect world, we would pass away peacefully at home, free from pain after a long and fulfilling life. Our beloved four legged friends would follow, in the same fashion, a few minutes after our own passing.

    Sadly, this is not the case. As such, we must endure the passing of our furry friends - most of us do so a multitude of times.

    I had high hopes that Barkley had a treatable condition and that he would be able to greet you as you walked through the door for years to come.

    My deepest condolences.

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  10. I grieve with you, Brigid. My own heart cries along with yours.

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  11. I always check your blog, its soothing tone is always appreciated compared to much of what I browse these days. I always enjoyed Barkley and his antics. I'm sorry for your loss.

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  12. Once a young child said: "People are born so that they learn how to live a good life. To love and to be kind to others. But dogs know this allready when they are born, so they don't have to live as long."

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  13. So very sorry to hear this. misbeHaven and I will have you and Barkley in our thoughts and prayers.

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  14. B-
    So sorry for your loss. I always enjoyed the tales of Barkley as he so closely resembles my lab (who I am now worried for as he has heartworm that he'll be treated for). From what you've written of him, Barkley was quite the character but also a good and faithful partner. Sleep well Barkley, My heart to you B-. T. Long EOC USN (Ret.)

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  15. My utmost condolence on your loss, Brigid. I wish him bright skies and fresh scents, and may he chase toys at the hand of God until you reunite.

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  16. Oh Brigid, I'm so sorry. Barkley was such a good friend to you, and I know how hard this is for you all. Our Shadow is waiting for us on the other side, too, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't remember my friend. Take care, and God bless.

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  17. There's nothing I can write that won't sound trite except "I'm so very sorry."

    He was lucky to have had you, and he had a good life with you--the best possible one.

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  18. I remember the day you took that last picture.

    He sat in the backseat with me all the way home.

    My love to you.

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  19. So really sorry for the lost of your best friend and buddy, take care lady.

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  20. Brigit, my husband and I both share your pain and sorrow. We've been there and so know what it is like to be parted from a much loved and love giving 4-pawed member of the family. Please know that our thoughts are with you.

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  21. Prayers and thoughts... So sorry to hear of Barkley's passing...

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  22. Oh, I am so sorry. It is our duty to do the right thing by the little critters that share their lives with us. That sadly never makes it any easier when the time comes...Again, I am so sorry

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  23. :( I'm so sorry Brigid. Your posts conveyed what I must assume is only a part of your bond.

    Take care, and there's plenty of us around more than happy to chat.

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  24. Our hearts go out to you. We have been there, also, too many times.

    Drop by sometime. Oh, the stories we could tell..

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  25. Oh dear. So very sorry. Had a couple of wonderful Labs myself before...so terribly hard to let go.

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  26. So sorry to read about Barkley. I always enjoyed the way you included him in all your stories. My heart goes out to you. RIP Barkley.
    Anthony

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  27. Brigid,

    My deepest and sincerest sympathies. My Heart goes out to you and the pain you are feeling.

    I have so enjoyed the sharing of yours and Barkley's adventures and he will be so very missed.

    Wishing you God's peace and you are in my prayers,

    Coeur de Maquis

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  28. Over the years, through your writing, Barkley became part of my life too. All of our lives. The Barkley posts always made me smile and lifted my spirits because, like lots of your readers, my pets also become loved family members and so many of his adventures were familiar . Especially some of your pics when he would get busted in some mischief and the look on his face was priceless. I'm so sorry Brigid, but I take solace in the joy I know he gave you. And your words in this post could not be more touching. The two of you did well by each other, and I'm thankful for that. Be strong my friend.

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  29. Being brave enough at the end to put and end to the pain & suffering is upholding our side of the unspoken oath. Benn there, done that..twice. Well done.

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  30. So sorry to read that. Over the years I have had a few that had to go that way, only one went in her sleep, and, still today it is hard and leaves a mist in your eyes. Now with 2 Great Danes and 2 brat cats, all you can do is love every precious second you have with them and feel the beat of their hearts next to yours.
    To Barkley; fly high and free.

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  31. My condolences. You gave him a good life, and then did the hardest thing that a pet owner can do. I've been there. You know it was the right choice, but that doesn't make it any easier. Please accept my sympathy.

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  32. My heart breaks for you. I have nothing more to say.

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  33. I am so sorry. You gave Barkley a good life. You clearly enriched each other.
    They give us everything, and it is our solemn duty to take care of them in the end. It is a hard task, but the ultimate show of gratitude for all they give to us.
    Barkley was loved my many that never had the pleasure of meeting him. Thank you for sharing his story with all of us. We grieve with you.

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  34. He basks in the light of forever.

    All the hugs I have to give are yours. I love you so much, B.

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  35. You have my deepest condolences.

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  36. You have my deepest condolences.

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  37. Even though I am not a pet owner, I feel your loss. Bless you.

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  38. Aw, damn. My condolences, Brigid. I lost my Lab many years ago, and we didn't get another dog until just recently. That was a mistake.

    Remember Barkley, but get a puppy!

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  39. Brigid, Words can't express the sorrow I feel right now. I know Barkley was your best friend. Mondays suck big time. Last Monday a former boss lost her fight with bone cancer after a 7 year fight.

    I know each and everyone who reads your blog are so very sorry for your lost. We all will be here if you need us.

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  41. I am literally stunned. I actually recoiled when I read this. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I had had the chance to meet him in person, and I'm kicking myself that I "called in sick" when I was up in your area a while back. Your words confirm what we who have followed you for any length of time have known. You and he had a special bond that few pet owners ever truly get to know, and you were unselfish enough to share that with us. For that, I thank you. Now, pardon me while I try to regain my composure here at work.

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  42. Although it will do nothing to quell the pain & loss, Hank (my chocolate lab) & I extend our deepest sympathies, sincerely Mike Scheiner

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  43. I cannot tell you how sad I am.
    Because I can occasionally feel the cold nose of my Susan, a golden retriever-cocker spaniel mix who passed of lung cancer in 2007, I know that they are kept for us, and that we see them again.
    They all give so much in the short lives they have here. Barkley is a special dear creature and will be missed by many. He was lucky to have such a loving and wise Mom, and of course, you are lucky to have been his Mom.
    I am so sorry.

    With love,

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  44. Although it will do nothing to quell your loss or pain, Hank (my chocolate lab) & I extend you our deepest sympathies, sincerely Mike Scheiner

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  45. I am sorry for your loss, you have my deepest condolences.

    --Matt R.

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  46. I am sorry. This brought tears to my eyes. I have been reading your blog for some time, and always enjoyed your tales of Barkley, and the love you shared. May those memories of him eventually bring a smile to you.

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  47. I am so sorry to hear this. Our prayers are with you.

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  48. I am so sorry. I am crying after reading this. I have followed your blog for some time, and always enjoyed your tales of Barkley and the love you shared. Praying that after time his memories will bring a smile to you. kathy

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  49. Can't imagine having to make that choice. Barkley was loved.

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  50. There are no words that can soothe your sorrow, just know that you are not alone.

    Rest in peace Barkley. You will be missed.

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  51. Farewell Barkley. Too short is the time we get to spend but there is so much love packed into every minute. http://www.lgd.org/library/kipling.htm

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  52. I'm crying right alongside you! Holding both my dogs tight and crying like a baby!

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  53. I'm so sorry, Brigid. I grieve for you and I grieve for Barkley. At the same time I know no dog on Earth could possibly have known more love and pure joy than he. And no creature on Earth has departed with a more loving and eloquent eulogy than he with yours.

    In Barkley's memory I'm going to go now and give our Tasha another Greenie, and sit and talk to her awhile.

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  54. Our furry companions take our hearts in exchange for their own. Any abusive person should know what hell on earth is like, just as their "pets" did.

    I've lost humans that didn't rip my heart to shreds like losing a CONSTANT companion. I sing to my furchild, and don't care who knows it.

    I am SO sorry for both of you.

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  55. I feel your pain We lost our pet 1 year ago last Christmas, we still hear her walk across the floor or shake her ears, The pain is still with us. We are sorry for your loss.

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  56. He was our friend and we all loved him. A loving soul with a hint of mischief--TSA dog dashing around the crash pad with my unmentionables in his mouth. Never quite realized that he wasn't a lap dog either.

    You did what a true friend would--keep him from pain and not put him through surgery and sickness.

    Love and prayers to you.

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  57. Now Schmoo has someone to keep her company at the Rainbow Bridge. They will play well with each other while they wait for us to catch up to them.

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  58. My condolences on your loss. Thank you for allowing us to glimpse the spirit of Barkley in these pages.

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  59. I'm so sorry. You made Barkley part of my life .. and probably so many others as well. He will be missed by many who never knew him.

    Q

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  60. Take heart, young lady. I'm not going to any afterlife that won't admit dogs and I bet you won't either. Rest secure in the knowledge that your other departed pets have welcomed him and now he waits for you.

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  61. Lu and I are so sorry Brigid. Know that you and Barkley will ever be in our hearts and prayers. Strength my friend.

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  62. I'm so sorry.
    You are all in my prayers.

    Long Live The Black Dog Of Truth!

    Many Hugs,
    gfa

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  63. He was a good dog, and had good people. Even though I never met him, I still know him, and will miss him, too. I'm pullin' for ya.

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  64. Awww, man. I don't comment, but I absolutely LOVED the Barkley posts. They have always been my favorites. For some time as a mention of his age has shown up here and there, I have had this day in the back of my mind.

    I know this loss well. It hurts and the longing for their companionship often never goes away. I am sure we will all miss him, though none so much as you.

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  65. My sympathies for the loss of your friend, your brother, your son....dogs can be all of these at the same time. Your posts have brought me innumerable smiles and a better understanding of my own dogs.

    David

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  66. D-- it, was hoping just a muscle strain I have a sad

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  67. Oh, Brigid! I'm so, so sorry. And I'm not going to blame it on dust in the room. These tears are for you (and Partner) and Barkley.

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  68. You are in my prayers tonight, my friend.

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  69. My deepest sympathy. They are such a big part of our lives, it is so hard to let them go.

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  70. I'm very sorry to read that you had to say goodbye to Barkley. A good dog is a treasure.

    Sincerely,
    Paul

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  71. We grieve with thee. No words can take away the pain, but it can be shared.

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  72. I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you, dear Lady.

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  73. I grieve for you and for Barkley. Please accept our with that he be with you in memory as much as he was with you in life.

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  74. I am so sorry for your loss. I also want to tell you that you had me in tears before I left work (last minute blog reviews). You told a beautiful story of his life & did well in letting him go. I am in awe of the courage you showed. Sleep well knowing that you did the right thing. He'll be waiting for you at heaven's gate.

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  75. RIP Barkley. You will be missed, but hopefully you wait, frolicking in the lush green fields of the here after, chasing those pesky squirrels away from the creators door with your four legged brothers in arms until your person comes home, one last time.

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  76. Bummer, so sad to hear the passing of Barkley. My heart and thoughts go out to you in your time of morning. I truly will miss Barkley. I cannot think of anything else to say but be safe.

    With Respect,
    Dennis B.

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  77. A stirring epitaph for a wonderful friend. I am so sorry... :(

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  78. Bummer, so sad to hear the passing of Barkley. My heart and thoughts go out to you in your time of morning. I truly will miss Barkley. I cannot think of anything else to say but be safe.

    With Respect,
    Dennis B.

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  79. Oh, Brigid, I am so sorry. I've never owned a dog, but I do remember what it was like to lose my cat of 15 years--heartbreaking and awful.

    If it's any consolation whatsoever, he knew that he was leaving you in good "paws" now that you have Partner. Interestingly enough, my cat died only after my DH and I got fairly serious. I like to think that she wouldn't go until she knew I'd have someone there for me. Perhaps Barkley felt the same.

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  80. There are no words that can say it's okay.
    Now he runs in fields playing with friends looking for the his person comes to play too.
    God bless.

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  81. I'm on my third dog now. Believe me when I say this, with all my heart and sincerity: I've been there. I know what it feels like. There's a dog-shaped hole in your heart.

    You have my condolences. May Barkley find many new friends in that far country we all go to eventually.

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  82. Oh my, I am so, so sorry for your loss.

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  83. OMG! I am so sorry for you!

    I am a long time lurker and appreciator of the values you espouse and publicize.

    I KNOW Barkley is in a better place, waiting for you.

    My prayers are for your grieving and pain to be short.

    Best

    Mark

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  84. I'm so sorry for your loss, Brigid.

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  85. So sorry you had to make that decision.

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  86. OMG - I am so sorry for your loss.

    Long time lurker and appreciator of the values you espouse and publicize.

    My prayers are for your grieving and to ease your pain.

    I KNOW Barkley is in a better place, waiting for you.

    Peace be with you...

    Mark

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  87. I am deeply sorry to hear about Barkley. I always enjoyed seeing pictures of him whenever I visited your site.

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  88. I am deeply sorry to hear about Barkley. I enjoyed seeing pictures of him whenever I visited your blog.

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  89. Oh Brigid, I am so sorry to learn of Barkley's passing. I known the pain you are experiencing right now as I also have gone thru these losses continuously for the last 50 some years. Labs are the very best dogs and I swear they feel real compassion for their "people persons" when needed most.
    Just keep on always thinking of the wonderful times you had together.

    Thinking of you as always, Everett

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  90. You did the right thing and you are stronger than I, my wife had to do that for our Lucy. I have been reading your blog for a long time and I feel that I know a little about your late mom, your brother and your father. . . and Barkley. I sure hope there is something to that rainbow bridge thing, I have some four legged friends I hope to see again. May the good Lord hold and keep you all!

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  91. Brigid,
    I'm so sorry for your loss. He was a true gentleman. And you were a great Mom. I'm at a loss for words.
    Tom

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  92. I'm very sorry to hear of the loss of your good friend, Barkley. I've been there a few times, Myself, and it hurts every time.

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  93. My heart breaks for your loss. May the God of All Men hold you and yours close in this time of sadness.

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  94. Oh, I am so very sorry to read this. He was a good, good guy, and you were the very best human he could have had.

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  95. So sorry to hear about Barkley We too faced a similar situation several years ago..

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  96. Loved your photos of Barkley. As a dog lover my heart breaks for your loss.

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  97. Truly sorry to hear the news, but know he's in a better place now... Thoughts and prayers...

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  98. I loved your photos of Barkley. As a dog lover a feel for your loss.

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  99. Brigid,

    I am truly sorry about the loss of your beloved Barkley. Over the years I read so much about him on your blog that I felt I knew him.

    Having lost my beloved Bo -- a 15 year old Lhasa Apso -- seven years ago, I can only say that memories are bliss. He was "my dog," the one out of all the rest that I had a very special bond with.

    The love a person develops with a special dog cannot be understood by many but is the stuff that makes life worth living, especially for one who had been deeply wounded by people.

    Thank you for sharing so much about him here. And thank you for allowing us in to share in your grief and in your wonderful memories.

    Blessings,
    Anthony

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  100. my heart hurts to hear of Barkley's final journey;
    yet he will be remembered fondly for the joy he brought and his humourous posts.
    most sincerest regards,
    kt

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  101. We're so sorry for your loss.

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  102. So sorry for your loss Brigid. It is very difficult to lose our four legged family members.

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  103. I am so sorry. You are all in my prayers.

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  104. Your heart's twin....no truer words. I have laughed and had my heartstrings pulled with each post where you mentioned him. So sorry for the loss to your family Brigid. ~ Enigma

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  105. He led a happy and full life. And he has you to thank for that. He couldn't have had a better companion.

    You have my deepest sympathies Brigid. Those of us who have lost beloved pets know all too well the pain. It eases. It ages. In time the pain will dull but our pets leave much too large a print on our hearts for the memories to ever fade.

    Barkley was a heck of a dog. I was glad to have had the privilege of meeting him.

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  106. Sincere Condolences. It's never easy to lose a beloved member of the family.

    Hang in there.

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  107. I feel a great disturbance in The Force......

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  108. My condolences. He could not have had a better companion. Beautiful eulogy. So sorry for your loss.

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  109. Adding my voice to all the others... I will miss him too and wish you peace in a very tough time.

    Long may he run in the fields of your heart, dear Brigid.

    I'll let Annie and Katie, my yellow labs gone now these many years, know to look out for Barkley at the Bridge. That marvelous place where there are always enough balls, frisbees and chew-toys, and there is never, ever any more pain.

    Fair Winds and Following Seas,

    Cap'n Jan

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  110. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you thoughts and prayers.

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  111. Brigid, I'm so sorry to hear this.

    Dogs are such faithful friends, and losing friends is never easy.

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  112. I am so sorry. My heart goes thump. I cry for him.

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  113. So sorry to hear of the loss of your dear friend. God Bless.

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  114. I can only echo the thoughts of the others who have posted, knowing the pain you are now feeling. Celebrate his life and know he is waiting for you at the rainbow bridge...young and pain free.

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  115. I don't comment often, but have been following for years. I'm so sorry Brigid. Barkley was a beautiful boy.

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  116. If you ever think that what you post does not touch countless lives, just look at how many folks are reaching out to you in this terribly time. And we are just the ones who reach out to comment; so many others can only tear-up and offer their quiet prayers.
    Barkley was your "child;" I guess that would make him our cousin. Thank you for sharing him with us. We all send our love.

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  117. When I enumerate my life's accomplishments, few things carry greater weight in my heart than having had the friendship of good dogs.

    It was my great privilege to have been one of Barkley's many friends- for to look in his eyes was to be his friend. I pity the people who never had the privilege.

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  118. All I can for now is bless all of you. It's been a horribly difficult day, but you are his family as well, and I needed to let you know what had happened.

    I'll be back in a day or two, right now, It's just hard to articulate my thought, but your cares and hugs and comments, helped get us through a difficult day.

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  119. Barkley had a beautiful soul, and was a much better being than most of the people I have met.

    It is truly a gift that you gave him at the end, but one that comes at such a dear cost.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Partner and Barkley. Wishing you the peace, comfort and strength you need in this time of trial.

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  120. Remember the times he made you laugh and smile.

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  121. Sorry for your loss. I am very fond of labs. They are great dogs.

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  122. Our deepest condolences, Brigid.

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  123. So sorry to hear of the passing of Barkley, he is in our prayers.

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  124. My condolences on your deep loss.
    You have immortalized Barkley in print and the collective conscience of your many readers and friends.

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  125. u know where i am. and you know how deeply i feel for the loss of one so loved. just yell when you need me.

    u no hoo

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  126. I am so sorry for the loss. I will miss him too.

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  127. Brigid...

    ...the gals have gone to bed... and I sit here with Ruger and Sasha... we celebrate the life of Barkley... and mourn your loss...

    I truly believe God gave us dogs to show us a glimpse of true, unconditional love, loyalty, and friendship... all that Barkley was and gave...

    You're in our prayers...

    Dann in Ohio

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  128. Brigid - My heart aches for your loss, but is gladdened by the wonderful memories (many shared on these pages) that he gave you.

    Godspeed, faithful and gallant Prince!

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  129. Brigid,
    Our condolences to you and your hubby.

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  130. Heart Breaking

    Sorry doesn't even begin to cover it.

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  131. I am so sorry to read this post. My heart hurts for you. I've been in the same place with a couple of my "kids" and there are no word that will help at this moment in time. All we can do is what is best for them. Hopefully very soon you can remember the antics and smile and giggle.
    Love and Hugs

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  132. There is nothing I can say that has not already been said, and said better than I could, by others.

    It is a decision I have had to make before and one which I dread making again and for that you have my deepest sympathies.


    BGM

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  133. So sorry for your loss. Words fail...

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  134. This was posted in the comments on my page, and I think it was for you, so forwarding: xo Brighid
    God, Gals, Guns, Grub said...

    Thinking of Brigid today... and the solace that only the warmth of a dog... your dog... curled up next to you can bring...

    Thank you for the moment of peace in an hour of turmoil...

    Dann in Ohio

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  135. We may never have met him in meat space, but we have met him in our hearts through Brigid's words and photos. And he has special meaning for everyone who met him that way.

    All of us who know him thusly, feel both your pain for his loss and your joy for his loss of pain and suffering.

    You made a choice, to not be selfish and to try to keep him near you longer, you chose to let him go. Taking away his pain. For you know he would gladly endure the pain to be with you.

    God Bless.

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  136. Barkley had such personality. You caught it well with your words and pictures. Hugs to you and EJ.

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  137. My sincere condolences on your loss. I had to put my little girl dog Snoopy to sleep just before Xmas, and reading your post had brought the feeling of loss back intensely to me for a brief moment. I know the pain goes away some but it will never completely vanish, at least to me.

    At least one thing's for sure: Barkley will be there waiting on the other side for you, just as my little buddy will be when it's time for me to make the trip.

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  138. RIP Barkley.

    Brigid, this is a beautiful tribute to a missing piece of your soul.

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  139. I am so terribly sorry to learn of Barkley's passing. He was a wonderful dog.

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  140. I am so very sorry to hear this. He is a very special friend and there is no doubt he loves his "parents" so deeply. And he felt your love as well. He trusted you to take care of him, even if it was incredibly tough on you; you took care of him in the very best ways, always, even in the end.

    The time is so very short, and all who met him know Barkley made the best of it. He is loved, you are loved. Each moment was packed with love and devotion and smiles. We're all so fortunate for getting to share some of Barkley's life.

    You are the best mom, know that.
    He was a great dog.
    He's comfortable now and he'll see you again someday.

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  141. Very sorry, Brigid. Very sorry.

    It was a dog that sustained me when I came from from the service, a dog that sustained me during my darkest alcoholic days and years, and a dog that celebrated with me when I found that one soul every bit as loving and loyal as my dog's and walked her down the aisle.

    Dogs, if you open your heart and mind, truly are our best friend. There are no better friends as a good dog is right there on an equal plane with the best human friends I've ever had and that includes family, my wife, my swim buddy from the service, my partner from law enforcement and many more.

    Barkley blessed you in your time of need, and then the time came, you returned the blessing.

    You two will meet again, and he'll be waiting with a ball--no leash because leashes are not needed in Heaven.

    God Bless.

    JD Kinman (An Ordinary American)

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  142. Thoughts and prayers . . . I am confident your souls journey together isn't over yet . . .

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  143. This poem by Kipling has comforted me in the same situation. May it do the same for you.

    "The Power of the Dog"

    There is sorrow enough in the natural way
    From men and women to fill our day;
    And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
    Why do we always arrange for more?
    Brothers and Sisters, I bid you beware
    Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

    Buy a pup and your money will buy
    Love unflinching that cannot lie --
    Perfect passion and worship fed
    By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
    Nevertheless it is hardly fair
    To risk your heart for a dog to tear.

    When the fourteen years which Nature permits
    Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
    And the vet's unspoken prescription runs
    To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
    Then you will find -- it's your own affair --
    But . . . you've given your heart to a dog to tear.

    When the body that lived at your single will,
    With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!)
    When the spirit hat answered your every mood
    Is gone -- wherever it goes -- for good,
    You will discover how much you care,
    And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

    We've sorrow enough in the natural way,
    When it comes to burying Christian clay.
    Our loves are not given, but only lent,
    At compound interest of cent per cent.
    Though it is not always the case, I believe,
    That the longer we've kept'em, the more do we grieve;

    For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
    A short-time loan is as bad as a long --
    So why in -- Heaven (before we are there)
    Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

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  144. My thoughts and prayers to you and Barkley.

    skybill and Lucky cat

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  145. I'm so sorry for your loss. I had prayed that his condition might be curable. That was not to be, but he had you to make the tough decision and set him free. We'll all miss him.

    Jim R

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  146. My heartfelt condolences.
    The loss of a beloved pet is the loss of a family member, and it hurts.
    Loving vibes sent to you and Barkley.

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  147. Sorry to hear.

    Thanks you for all you shared about him.

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  148. I know from reading your posts over the years past that you loved that dog something fierce.

    My sincerest condolences.

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  149. So sorry hun, just remember we lose nothing we keep in our hearts

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  150. I am so sorry for your loss of your friend, Barkley. You have so many good memories of your time together. He will be missed. I'm sorry he couldn't stay with you longer, but you couldn't let him be in pain.

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  151. DAMN Damn damn, i read this news last
    night and could not comment through
    my tears still find it hard to do so
    dogs dont live long enough the reason
    i have never got another is because of the heartbreak,thinking of you all
    at this time.

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  152. I am very sorry to know this. My deepest condolences.

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  153. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend, Brigid. He was special.

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  154. Oh B, I am so sorry for your loss. I do believe that all of us that interact with your blog know the pain and feeing of loss that you are going through right now.

    My prayers are with you and this is for you.....((((H)))).

    Bob
    III

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  155. Dear one, I know your grief and it is hard. Prayers for you and Partner as you get to know a new reality. Barkley will be missed by all your readers, too.

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  156. So sorry for your loss but so happy for the wonderful memories you shared with him.

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  157. My condolences, Brigid. You gave him a great life, he has given you great memories.

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  158. Dogs teach us much about life... when it's gone, it's gone and while we have it it's not to be wasted. So, bark a lot and chase all the sticks and balls that you can!

    Ave atque avale, Barkley!

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  159. Brigid, when I read this last night, something I read several years online ago came to mind:

    A dog's purpose

    Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron , his wife Lisa , and their little boy Shane , were all very attached to Belker, and they were hoping for a miracle.

    I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family we couldn’t do anything for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home.

    As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for six-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

    The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker ‘s family surrounded him.. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away.

    The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion. We sat together for a while after Belker’s Death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.

    Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ”I know why.”

    Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I’d never heard a more comforting explanation. It has changed the way I try and live..

    He said,”People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life — like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The Six-year-old continued, ”Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

    *****

    Live simply.
    Love generously.
    Care deeply.
    Speak kindly.
    Remember, if a dog were the teacher you would learn things like:
    When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
    Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.
    Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure Ecstasy.
    Take naps.
    Stretch before rising.
    Run, romp, and play daily.
    Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
    Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.
    On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.
    On hot days, drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree.
    When you’re happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
    Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
    Be loyal.

    Never pretend to be something you’re not.
    If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
    When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by, and nuzzle them gently.

    ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY!

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  160. So sorry to hear this, Brigid. It's a difficult decision to make--I've had to do so several times--and I feel your pain and loss.

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  161. Oh Brigid we are so sorry for your loss, Colleen and I have you in our prayers. I am very glad you have Partner there to help you through this. Take care my friend.

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  162. I don't really have anything to add to what everyone's already said.

    But I'm so sorry for your loss. And I know he's waiting for you on the far side of the Rainbow Bridge.

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  163. Damn. Sorry. Wish there was more I could say.

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  164. I am so terribly sorry to hear of your loss. I'm sure Barkley will hook up with my labs, Dalton and Jackson, while they wait for us to someday join them again.

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  165. So sorry,Brigid,but we know that we will only have them for a little while,and you and Barkley were lucky enough to have each other.It's been a pleasure to hear from you the stories you told.

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  166. I am so sorry. This is a devastating loss.

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  167. So sorry for your loss. It's always hard, I know.

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  168. Brigid, I'm so sorry to hear about Barkley passing.

    My sincere condolences.

    Irish

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  169. I was thinking about how much better my shots are when I have little time, kind of like our favorite dogs, they know better than we that time is too swift, it is not to be wasted - life is to be spent in motion and love. We can only imagine how wonderful Barkley was, but then we have read about him forever and have almost bonded with the printed version with images of him. Thank you for sharing, he didn't bite.

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  170. Brigid,
    I am sorry for your loss...
    Coop

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  171. M and I are so terribly saddened by this news. Our hearts go out to you. Crying with you.

    G

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  172. Brigid,

    My most sincere condolences on the loss of Barkley.

    SteveG

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  173. Barkley was a gift on loan for you to enjoy for a time. God has taken his puppy back to heal. Bless you for your kindness

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  174. I know the joy they give and that pain when you have to do the right thing.

    You have my prayers and sympathy.

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